I came across your website and felt some of the similar experiences you have. I also have a tendency to perceive suffering in my life as something written by cosmic forces, though perhaps as a coping mechanism I've come to view it as a sort of show. Perhaps, I think to myself, there is someone (or someones) out there watching this whole thing like a serialized TV show and the suffering is what makes for good television. But that's also highly egotistical of me to think that my life holds any meaning out in a cosmic sort of sense. I've grappled with a lot of questions about my purpose and where I'm going throughout my life, but it seems that it only gets harder with each passing day as more and more friends drift away and I find myself becoming lonelier and lonelier. To that end, I've stopped subscribing to the idea of hope and instead began thinking of my life like an ant. An ant holds no greater meaning or purpose to the world at large. An ant can die, and no one will mourn it. Its colony will not even notice its absence. The ant is ultimately just a nothing, and once I started looking at my life like that, things feel a little better. Because I am no more important than an ant, and in nature, ants die all the time without a passing glance.

Hey, I'm Omama. I've been reading your blogs and I am engulfed by their vulnerability and self reflexivity. I've struggled with people pleasing all my life, and It's one of the main things that hinders me from truly being happy. When I clicked on the link to your website I was at first— horrified. "What did i miss??" but upon reading your blog post about it, I couldn't be happier. You were someone I always came back to because of your dedication to your web practice, because you were infinetly helpful in helping me interiorize a space for myself on the internet. But now that I'm past all of that, I find myself in a similar stream of consciousness...Your reflections about your own experiences have resonated with me as I have begun to unravel the same things within myself. So, from one sad online girl to another, I'm glad to be accompanied by you in this stream. With Love, Omama

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Your stuff has been super helpful in pushing me to finally start coding my own website, I've made more progress in the last 2 hours than I have in months of saying "oh wow I should learn to code" and that's pretty cool, so thanks :3

erm... spanks... ig

hi my name is jack. actually were TWO jqacks and we are sitting on the same couch. TBH i havent read anything on this website. happy new years. if you celebrate that. you cant say anythingnowadays LOL. im actually stone cold sober. MAHA (MAKE AMERICA HIHG AGAIN LOL)

I thank you for your tutorials on setting up a website. It helped me start mine. I am glad to have something to call my own.

hi, you brilliant

I just read your article "A part of me believes I'm cursed" and I just want to say thank you. I emotionally resonate with it so much and it almost made me cry because emotional things that resonate with my psyche tend to almost make me cry.

I stopped looking for a better internet and got into self hosting. Might as well do it myself after the dumpster fire i witnessed in the indie web community and the Yesterweb movement.

"I ache to feel human, connected, real" I get it (or maybe a version of it) , I call myself alien anthropologist, here to study and document things, but never human enough to feel things as i should

Thanks alot for your cotribution to the internet and to the world

Your web manifesto has no clue. you focued too hard on hollow, replicable things like aesthetics, and treated capitalism as a big bad, as if to excuse communism of its own sins. Communism was built on the back of capitalism, and cannot exist without it, as such as a ying and yang. The issue with the modern web is corporations; not capitalism as a whole. The reason Yesterweb failed was because it focused heavily on drawing in a twitter user and discord user crowd, while focusing too heavily on politics, which are divisive at best and radicalizing and hate filled at worst, as well as the hollow and replicable nature of aesthetics. You completely forgot about the importance of splintering and factioning of the old web... some groups cannot get along, you don't necessarily want gamers and book nerds in the same space, nor do you want furries and edgy 4chan kids in the same place either. What brought the old web freedom was one: not a rejection of capitalism, as many people profited off the old web too, but it was the rejection of big corporations and advertisers. and two: what brought the most freedom WAS said splintering, and as well freedom of speech, even when it was against what you believed in. Your yesterweb while succeeding in some areas like getting people to make their own websites, it failed because it did none of these things that I mentioned and instead ONLY focused on aesthetics and politics. if you want a BETTER piece on how to revive the old web, go read mine up in that site... But again, if it wasn't for your earlier concepts (and vaporwave) I probably would have never found the personal, small, and indie factions of the web, and would have never discovered spacehey, or forums, or anything like this to write this piece so in a way, while I am scolding you for how you failed and got to wrapped up in politics, I still thank you for giving me the resources I needed to realize and write my DEAD WEB EXODUS piece.

fell down the rabbit hole of blogs/sites and ended up here :3 awesome sauce!!

"so much for old web revival.. You have fallen to the minimalist side... You were supposed to help FIGHT the minimalism not join it." -Anon What the helly. Nah, this comment ain't it. I love the new layout. Great job! Looking forward to watching you evolve within your intensity.